Wednesday, June 06, 2007 12:08 AM
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hais. i reali hve to say everyting out nw. i cant stand it ani longer. i tot everyting was gg on fine. until he msg-ed me one nite. i was told he had a stead. so i tink it's ok. but ytd nite, he came telling me tad he misses me. wad can i do?! i no longer feels for him. i've moved on wif my lyfe. found sumone i lyk. new frens n new lyfe. y mus he come n tell me all these?! gosh.
i tot god was gud to me. but, hais. y mus he play a trick on me. i wan none of tis. xcept the love of my new found lyfe. n the love of my xiaoD. nth else more. n nth else less. my hart no longer feels, xcept for xiaoD. he's the oni reason i live. i wan him to b me one n only. nobody else.
i felt so disturbed by wad he told me last nite. the ting lingers in my mind as i try to get sum pathetic slp. but god, i could hve gotten 2 hrs worth of slp. but cos of wad he say, i tink i oni gt an hr of slp. dun torture me animore. it's a torment i cannot tke. he i wish xiaoD will b here to stay. guiding me thru my journeys n shower me wif the care, concern n love i lack.
qsn kips popping unto my mind. "hw shuld i face him?" "hw shuld i go about toking to him?" the feeling is so different nw. i no longer wanna face facts. i jus wan to live in my own world. a world where xiaoD is here. always by my side n neva leave me alone.
