Monday, July 23, 2007 2:54 PM
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"i tink u guys r wrong to get angry over it" u commented.
how my hart hurts when i heard tad remark. i tot u r different frm the rest, i tot u wuld understand. but i guess i was proven wrong, by tad remark u gave. we placed our trust, by confiding in u. in the end, all we gt was nth xcept wad everyone is doing to us. hw foolish am i, to tink tad u will b different. hw stupid am i, to tink tad u wuld understand. NO! u, u n u. all hu've commented on wad we r doing, nobody understands! hw wuld u all understand when all u all hve in ur hands is a perfect life, wif a perfect family?! wuld u even understand hw we feel everytym we hve to step into the 'gates of hell' which welcomes us everyday? wuld u even understand the fear we face whenever sumting crops up? all u people do is to pin-point us when sumting happens.
"we dun wan tis to happen" u said.
hey, as if we wanted tad to happen! hu wuld run away frm a perfect family? hu wuld run away frm a perfect life? all u people does is to comment. hw i hate it whenever u all start toking. hw i wish to tear ur mouths apart whenever u pin-point. hw i wish to mke u all mute so tad u people wun bother us further!
no more trust it shall b. tis is wad u all made me to b.
train-ed to sch tis morning n passed by expo. memories came flooding my mind. the wonderful sight on saturday nite. the hosting of the dinner, the entertaining of guests. everyting runs smoothly. hw i envy bro for his bravery. agreeing to be the emcee of the day almost immediately when jeral asked. hw proud i m for emcee-ing the whole nite. hw proud i m for nt running away in fear, although the fear inside is devouring me. hw touched i m when i knew tad jeral wuld b happy. hw sad i m at the tot of jeral leaving us. hw loving we were when we hugged each other sooo tightly n took fotos. tears welled up, threatening to drop. the mixture of emotions, the indescribable feeling .. ..
u r badly missed ..
